为什么我决定成为一名医生

I was in third grade when I startedhaving visits to a hospital. I had a weak2body， but I was a playful3 child at that age.My weak body was one of the reasons forthese visits that really made my parentsworried about my health， as they still dotoday. Doctors and nurses became the firstprofessional figures4 in my life early as alittle child. Maybe my parents thought Ineeded company5 or someone who wouldlook after me， so they thought that keeping mein a hospital was the best way to work it out.

While growing up， I did not think thatnot being a normal6 child was a big deal. Ireally liked the hospital room. But I did feelnervous7 when my doctors would come inand check on me. One time， a doctor in hisearly forties came in saying that I needed todo some operation8 and I could be hurt9.The idea did make me scared， but as achild back then， I did not quite understandwhat my young body would have toendure10.

What I really worried about was ifthese doctors ever felt tired or bored whenthey looked after me. I had worries about itbecause I was not good at having conversations.And I was not like those childrenwho do not shy away from almost anything.This was why I always stay under theblanket11 whenever someone would comeinto my hospital room.

“Don’t be afraid， Jade. I am just hereto check up on you. How are you feelingright now？”

My young nurse， looking fresh out ofcollege， was smiling at me while explainingwhat she was going to do. I wanted toanswer or smile at her， but I was feelingnervous. I was gripping12 my blankettightly13， showing my frustration14. I justdid not how to start a conversation.

“Well， I hope you are getting better.Call me up if you need anything.”

She walked to the door and left then.It left me thinking： What was it like to beon the other side？ To be a doctor or anurse， you must be good at havingconversations with your patients and reallycare about them.

This helped me realize15 that I wantedto be a doctor， too. Maybe someday I’llknow how these doctors feel when they lookafter their patients. Do they get bored withanyone， even those who are good atconversation？ One day， I will be a doctorlike them.

我三年级的时候开始长期去医院看病。我身体比较弱，但在那个年龄我是一个顽皮的孩子。我虚弱的身体是去医院的原因之一，频繁去医院看病确实让我的父母担心我的健康，直到今天他们仍然很担心。在我童年的早期，医生和护士成为我最早接触到的职业角色。也许我的父母认为我需要有人陪伴或有人照顾我，所以他们觉得把我留在医院是最好的解决办法。

在成长过程中，我认为没有一个正常的童年并没有什么大不了的。我真的挺喜欢病房。但当医生进来给我做检查时，我确实感到紧张。有一次，一个四十出头的医生进来说我需要做手术，手术中我可能会受伤。这个说法确实让我害怕，但作为一个孩子，我当时并不太明白我年轻的身体将承受什么。

我真正担心的是这些医生在照顾我时是否会感到疲劳或厌烦。我对此很担心，因为我不擅长与人交谈。我不像那些做任何事情都不害羞逃避的孩子。这就是为什么每当有人进入我的病房时我总是躲在毯子下面。

“别害怕，杰德，我只是来给你做检查的。你现在感觉怎么样？”

我的那位年轻护士看上去刚从大学毕业，一边向我微笑一边解释她将要做什么。我想回答她或对她微笑，但我感到紧张。我紧紧地抓着毯子，显得很沮丧。我只是不知道如何开始与人谈话。

“好吧，我希望你正在好转。有什么需要就叫我。”

她向门口走去，然后离开了。这让我开始思考：易地而处是什么感觉呢？要成为一名医生或护士，你必须善于与你的病人交谈，并真正关心他们。

这种想法促使我意识到，自己也想成为一名医生。也许有一天我会知道这些医生照顾病人时的感受。他们会对病人感到厌烦吗，即使是那些善于交谈的病人？总有一天，我会成为像他们一样的医生。